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Sunday, December 12, 2004
darling,you have went abt 1wk.this days hasnt been good for me at all.everyday,i spend my tym missing you,wondering if you're fine,wondering if u're still sad.i still care for you and of coz,i still love you.
i love you till the heart changes,till my soul longs for someone else.but tt will take some time.i dun hope for sumone else to enter in my life..i hope for you.and i hope that i will spend xmas this year with you.having you is my best xmas present i can ever receive.
i duno y but the affinity we share itz juz so strong.itz juz simply 2 mths.2 mths and my heart flew to urs.and the impact is so much greater..it hit me so hard that i thot mb the moon hit the earth or something.i koe tt u will say tt everyone goes through this after they break up.but i'm telling you,this time it is different.the impact is different..i duno y
without you now,i feel so lonely.so empty..so uncomfortable without you.nights are difficult now bcoz i dun haf your coax and care to accompany me thru the nite.there is now no one to ensure that i slp fine and no one to care whether i am still alive.it was all you before and now,the place is vacant.
i really hope that the seat will be taken up again,by you.i duno y but there is jsut this very strong bond between us.i koe tt if i'm gona say wat i'm gona say next,i might just be killing myself but i dun care.if u really come back,i assure you that i will reduce my moodswings and stop using tt way to attract ur attention and love,but i cannot totally reduce it because i am,afterall,a gal.i nid a guy's love and care..a guy's hugs & kisses..and a guy's attention to koe that he cares.
i duno y i just cant get over you.i dun wan to be involved in other guys now and i cant find one(mb bcoz God doesnt want me to find one).i just wana be with you alone..and i koe,deep in my heart,tt you are the one for me.and only you baby,only you.i've gave you so much bcoz i trusted you.baby,dun break my trust for you.i love you and i will always do.
baby,rmber.
if you are the sun, i am the moon.
if you are the pen, i am the paper.
if you are jam, i am bread.
if you are anger, i am joy.
if you are body, i am the blood flowing through.
if you are mind, i am the nerves.
whatever it is,only wen we two work together and comprise each others differences,will the both of us be united as one and conquer all problems.
only wen the two things are used together that they will be useful.
rmber dear,rmber.
"only wen we two loearn to work together and accept each others flaws and use love to perfect it will we be togther always."
; with tonnes of love
