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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
haiz
juz finished the science thg
waiting for ms wong to edit
itz not tt i mean to be angry
but really, you wan me to hand in sumthg in 4hrs?
maybe it can be done but wdv
i'm tokg rubbish
there are tyms i wished i had sumone
sumone i cld lean on
sumone i koe i cld consult and sulk
sumone who wls always be dere for me
to gif me a hug n sum words to push me on
juz a sumone
but i dun
well i'm troubled
i duno who to tell
well i feel lyk breaking down
i dun feel tt anyone cares
mb it is true tt no one dares
i'm juz a loner
a loser
and a big one
i hate myself
i hate life
i cant take it anymore
there are too many thgs
too lil support
too lil i duno wat
i koe i shd lean to God
but i juz cant
i duno y
i cant draw myself close to God
i hate it lidt
juz kill me
PLEASE
i cant take it anymore
sumtyms i feel that ple hate to be with me
i hate yan hates me
i juz feel she does
i feel tt everyone hates to be with me
i feel tt itz is a chore for ple to be with me
ple lyk denise, ginni and caressa
i pity them for having me as a fren
i dun even koe if i'm a fren to them
i feel so lost
so unwanted
so left alone
mb i am juz a loner
i shdnt be here
since the start
flunked my a maths paper
cant catch up in skol
tired
science proj
council investiture
wat a leader am i?
a lousy n shitified one
i hate myself
i hate my life
i bet everyone hates the me tokg now
can sumone kill me?
i wana leave this world
so tt all may find peace
; with tonnes of love
