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Tuesday, March 01, 2005
juz got rejected
what can i say?
i knew it all along that he doesnt lyk me
keith was right
guys ignore the hints if they dun lyk you
but i duno
i juz lyk him
how i am suppose to koe y
itz not that i want to be attached (a fact is tt i dun wan to)
but juz someone closer
sumone that has the closer contact with me
if you understand
i'm not sure y he rejected
whether it is purely because he doesnt lyk me
or bcoz of o's
but i wan him to koe tt if itz bcoz of the o's
please tell me
coz i'm not planning to get super close b4 the o's
itz after the o's
to put it in a very nice way
if we really get close, studying together works too
share notes, peer tutoring and in the mist get closer
i duno wat to say
tks chun lok n karen for trying
i dun mind if u continue too
although my heart is broken
itz not tt bad yet
i always gif chances n take long tyms to recover
so, now for a birthday wish tt is impossible (tts y itz called b-day wish!)
i wish for a positive repl
tts all i wan
CLOSER but not tt close
if not, can i haf joel back?
not tt i'm being a flirt
but
he is the one tt leave the deepest impression
even though i was longer with felix,
the bond we shared is simply deeper.
i duno why
i juz missed so much the tyms we had together.
i thot i saw new light
someone who cld bring me that happiness once agn
having those sweet tyms i long lost
but now i am wrong
because i was all one-sided
always one-sided
i'm being foolish
so foolish that i fall
so badly that sumtyms i wan to gif up on guys
but i'm nvr able to do so...
nvr wld i get the privilege of being with THE ONE for so long in the kinda tyms
not lyk joel's parents
nvr was that near me
nvr
10yrs they cld stay together
i thot joel was the one
den he left, i thot he cld be the one
den he rejected
wat haf i gota say
but i derserve it
; with tonnes of love
