#entry
Sunday, November 19, 2006
why have you changed?
why are you so fake?
why do you seem so distant?
i tried to convince myself
that you were mean for my good
that you were mean so i wld leave
to seek a better future
i tried to be strong
i really did
i ignored the things i have seen
the things i have heard
but why?
why do this to me?
tell me baby
please tell me
i love you
and i really do
i wana be strong for you
for us; for our future
but i really cant right now
i swear to you
i tried
i told people about you
about my future
about my desire
about us
i resorted to self-deception
just so that i will stand still
but im tired
tired of deceiving myself
saying thgs the nice way
to convince myself
that our love is real
and our love is true
that we will last forever
that i will wait for you
maybe im juz tired now
now that your words slapped it right in the face
but why have you changed?
must you reall do this?
do this to make me go away?
cant you see that no other can take ur place?
cant you see that you cld be THAT one if you wan to?
if you stop being so self-sacrificial
if you let yourself follow ur own heart?
i really wan to stand still
despite all you've thrown at me
but im crumbling
really crumbling without you
i believe in my heart
and i believe in you
please baby dont
dont push it anymore
dont be mean anymore
there is only so much i can take
so much i can take without you
im at the edge
please dont push it anymore
i will fall-
`her
; with tonnes of love
